Instead of my mother allowing me to freely make this decision to change my religion of my own personal belief at 15 years of age, she forced me to continue the meetings with her. Even when I protested and stated my belief is different, it would only enrage her and make her have more drive to push me into the kingdom hall.

She always used Armageddon as a way to try and keep me in line. She has stated repeatedily I will die with the world, whether I like it or not is irrelevent; I will die by god’s hand. This scared the crap out of me and it actually worked. She also kept me isolated from public schools and even colleges until recently, but I think she may have realized she done a boo-boo and is now trying to get me to back-peddle and bottle out of going to college. But it was was like walking through boiling water when I brought the topic of going to college, she always said I would never make it and I wouldn’t be able to deal in college, because in primary school i was bullied.

That may be her intention at first, but I now realize her main intention all along from then-on must’ve been connected to her religion. I have alot of personal experience with Jehovah Witnesses and I have even been told by one guy in the congregation, “Armageddon will come, whether you like it or not, it will come and you will die.” he literally said that to my face infront of my mum, she didn’t bat an eyelid. But you know what they successfully done? Paralyzed me, caused me to have the “battered person syndrome” as they call it.

I have no doubt I was emotionally abused when I was younger, and controlled hard by my mother. Whether it was due to my mother’s poor upbringing or her religion, I’m not sure. I do know however, god and jesus isn’t about murdering people who do not choose to follow Christianity. They judge the wicked and the wicked people were described as; “Rapists, murderers, thieves, child abusers.” etc. I had seen that the bible REALLY says is this: “Those who accept God through Jesus, are saved.” That is word-for-word, accurately and contextuely provided. What that says right there is; “Accept god and jesus into your life, and you will be saved.” It doesn’t mention hell, or a painful agonizing death. It doesn’t mention god raining hell on you. It’s a simple sentence and although many might argue it is still accepting god and jesus and thus may only be referring to Christianity, I will also say that I believe god wants us to have individual faith, not group-faith, but faith in all of us. We’re unique, our levels of faith ofcourse are going to be different.

I have many stories and your site has truly helped me to find peace. Thank you for all this, and I can say first hand what you have provided is true. My personal experience has matched up to what you said, other JW’s who say this doesn’t happen; they’re lying. It DOES happen and it will continue to happen until the end of time.

Final note: I will be giving a real email address but withhold my real name as my mum has the bad habit of spying across the web on me, and I do not wish to make anything more worse at home.